At The Crossroads

Being at a crossroads in life can be pretty challenging, especially when you don’t know what you want and which way to go. Add a few health issues into the bag, mix it up with being out of work and it can start to feel quite depressing very quickly. Being on a personal development quest doesn’t make it any easier, in fact it sometimes feels even harder.

I grew up in Lancashire (England) in a ‘hard working’ family with the motto ‘You weren’t put on this earth to mess around’ so although my mum broke the mould by selling the family business and going to India, it is still something that is ingrained in us so much it remains one of my strongest inner critics.

Learning to trust and staying focussed on being positive has never been more vital to me than it is at the moment. Yet here I am, having given up work to take care of my well-being I find myself wallowing in a hole of self made misery. Needing to stop and rest, but feeling I should just do something – anything, to create an income and get back to work. It leaves me doing neither very well!

I truly don’t know if I am doing the ‘right’ thing by following my heart, and I don’t know what the future holds. I wonder what I would do differently if I did know. Would knowing the future help? Somehow I don’t think so. All I can say is that being surrounded by a multitude of personal development material, online resources and wonderful books hasn’t simplified matters. It has just been overwhelming not knowing which paths to follow.

What has helped is the tremendous support of my family, friends and the coaching group I am in. Just knowing that everyone wants me to be happy and fulfilled keeps me on track. Another thing that helps is recognising this is a transition and that I will get through it one way or another. Hopefully I will gain a little insight and wisdom along the way.

I do believe that staying focussed on gratitude and abundance is the key to tackling all life’s challenges. So, ultimately I know the best thing for me is to just keep counting my blessings every day.